Wednesday, September 30, 2009

One Year

One year ago today, my life changed in a way that I never thought would happen to me. I felt the most pain, sorrow, anger and shock than I had ever in my life. Soon after, I realized that I was blessed. I was blessed with the knowledge of where she was, I was blessed with four months with a healthy, happy baby, I was blessed with prayers of support and strength, I was blessed with a husband that never once cast blame on me but only supported me and loved me.

During this year, I have had to move past a lot of blame issues. Thankfully, I found a person to talk to and work through the blame and shock with, so I could grieve in a healthy way. I can now look upon this day without feeling like I could have done something to change the outcome. I can look at today and know that my sweet girl is our guardian angel and is enjoying the wonders of Heaven. She was hand picked my God to join him in his kingdom and she is not pining for me, she is waiting for the day that I will join her.

Through Abigayl's passing, I have found friendships that I know will last a lifetime, I have found a church family that I love, I have renewed my faith and have become a stronger christian and I have grown closer to my husband.

I miss Abigayl terribly and I love her with every cell in my body. She is my sweet angel and I can't wait to see her, hold her and kiss her again. The great thing is... I know that I WILL see her, hold her and kiss her again.


Jamie Jo said...

Thinking of you today! I am glad we are blogging friends. You have such a beautiful spirit.

Brandi said...

Beautifully written...

Praying for you both today.

zum the mum said...

Praying for you today. You are such a wittness to all of us. A total example of strength through faith.