Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Jumble of Emotions

Well, we had a great weekend. Friday night we both did our own things. I had a girls night, the three of us saw Fireproof (great movie, totally recommend it) and then grabbed a bite at Los Cobos (yummy!). While Rusty went to the casino with his dad. I liked it because he actually won some money!

Saturday we had lunch with friends and I did some shopping with the girls while the men watched sports and did "manly" things. Then we went to a wedding reception. It was a really nice reception with some GREAT bbq. I'm so excited for them.

Monday was a very emotional day for me. I cleaned the house but I would have moments where I would just break down. It is so hard to go about my daily activities and not have Abigayl here. I find myself trying to clean quietly so that I don't wake her. Then it hits me all over again that she's not here. It tears my heart out every time.

Last night we went to a "getting through the holidays" grief workshop. This probably won't sound right but, it was really nice to connect with others that are going through similar emotions. I actually met a woman who lost her 2 yr old in September. Her daughter had heart failure and was going through her 3rd open heart surgery. She is also a stay-at-home mom, going through the same emptiness that I am. It is a strange thing to make friends through such a painful tragedy. Rusty and I both feel we got a lot out of the meeting.

1 comment:

AustinFamily said...

Hey girl, you've been on my heart lately. We should do lunch or something again soon. I'll be praying for you and Rusty this next month or so esp. I'm here for you if you need anything! Just give me a ring!!