Tough day...

So, today has been the one of the toughest days I've had. Everything made me cry today. Normally I really enjoy looking at all of Abigayl's pictures but today it was really tough. I miss her so much and I long to hold her.

I did some research on S.I.D.S (sudden infant death syndrome) yesterday. I found that there is NO known cure or cause. It is not linked to genetics, race or gender. I did read that it is instantaneous. The whole body shuts down at once, there for, there is no pain or suffering. That is very comforting. Also, there is no stopping it. Even if I would have been sitting there with her I wouldn't have been able to do anything to save her. I hope one day researchers will find a cure/cause so that we don't have to lose our children to this anymore.