We had a pretty good weekend! We had dinner Friday night with a great couple from our church. They have a 2 year old and 5 month old (born ~2 weeks before Abigayl). It was a great dinner with great conversation. We were able to play with their 2 year old and they were kind enough to let me hold their 5 month old. It was what I have been needing. I can't tell you how much my arms have ached to hold a child. He is such a sweet boy and he made so many sounds that reminded me of Abigayl. It was such a great night!
Saturday, I went shopping with my grandma and had some lunch. It was really nice to get to see her and now I have a dream camera in mind! She bought a camera that has red eye elimination and a setting that can fix imperfections in faces!! So, thankfully Christmas is right around the corner!! Saturday night we went to our neighbors house for a Halloween party/hot dog cook-out. Rusty was Clark Kent (very handsome with the black hair and all) and I was a Snow queen. I was so glittery I probably could have lit up the night sky if you shined a flash light on me!! It was a nice time and fun to get dressed up. (I will have to post pics later when I get the disposable cameras developed)
Sunday we went to church, then to see Abigayl. It never gets easy going to visit her. I had a really hard day Sunday. For some reason I just couldn't stop the tears. It's hard to be hurting and not be able to do anything about it. Normally, I love to look at her pictures and watch her videos, but yesterday it was just to hard on me. After visiting Abigayl and crying for a very long time, we had dinner at his sister's new house. Delicious food and the house looks great!
All in all, it was a pretty good weekend. We miss Abigayl everyday but there are some days that are much harder than others. Sometimes I wish I could bring her back. But, that would not be fair to her... I know that Heaven is WAY better than here. I just lover her so much and sometime it's really hard for me to wrap my mind around the fact that she is really gone.