Monday, October 27, 2008

Pretty good weekend!

We had a pretty good weekend! We had dinner Friday night with a great couple from our church. They have a 2 year old and 5 month old (born ~2 weeks before Abigayl). It was a great dinner with great conversation. We were able to play with their 2 year old and they were kind enough to let me hold their 5 month old. It was what I have been needing. I can't tell you how much my arms have ached to hold a child. He is such a sweet boy and he made so many sounds that reminded me of Abigayl. It was such a great night!

Saturday, I went shopping with my grandma and had some lunch. It was really nice to get to see her and now I have a dream camera in mind! She bought a camera that has red eye elimination and a setting that can fix imperfections in faces!! So, thankfully Christmas is right around the corner!! Saturday night we went to our neighbors house for a Halloween party/hot dog cook-out. Rusty was Clark Kent (very handsome with the black hair and all) and I was a Snow queen. I was so glittery I probably could have lit up the night sky if you shined a flash light on me!! It was a nice time and fun to get dressed up. (I will have to post pics later when I get the disposable cameras developed)

Sunday we went to church, then to see Abigayl. It never gets easy going to visit her. I had a really hard day Sunday. For some reason I just couldn't stop the tears. It's hard to be hurting and not be able to do anything about it. Normally, I love to look at her pictures and watch her videos, but yesterday it was just to hard on me. After visiting Abigayl and crying for a very long time, we had dinner at his sister's new house. Delicious food and the house looks great!

All in all, it was a pretty good weekend. We miss Abigayl everyday but there are some days that are much harder than others. Sometimes I wish I could bring her back. But, that would not be fair to her... I know that Heaven is WAY better than here. I just lover her so much and sometime it's really hard for me to wrap my mind around the fact that she is really gone.

1 comment:

Jamie Jo said...

I just found your blog (we are friends of Patrick and Lucy from Alaska) and my heart breaks for you as I read it. I am so sorry for your loss. It sounds like Abigayl was very fortunate to have such wonderful parents who surrounded her with God's love. May God continue to wrap His arms around you during this time.